Sunday, 16 August 2015

Why do Mixed People shy away from their ‘White Side’ Part II

The Obama syndrome

As you will probably know, the American President Barak Obama was born to a Muslim, then Christian, then Atheist African man, and a Christian, then Secular European woman. 
His mother raised him along with his stepfather, an Indonesian Muslim man, and he shares blood with a half Indonesian Buddhist sister.
He was born in Hawaii, and for a while lived in Indonesia and later became known as the first African American president.
Obama is not only the first African American president… he is the first president to truly represent most of America and this is not just because of his DNA.
Although he has roots in Europe, Africa and America, his upbringing means he has roots in Asia too.
This is why I refer to people who are very mixed in their cultural understandings of life as having the ‘Obama Syndrome’.
It is no doubt a social advantage, you understand deeply people from completely different backgrounds natively. You simply get it. Sometimes you stop people from arguing due to subtle misunderstandings which are so easy for you to spot, other times you watch them, to see if eventually they will figure it out themselves (or purely for your entertainment.)
As a person who comes from many places (as deemed by the world I live in) I was confused for the better half of my childhood and young adulthood. 
I was born in Saudi...according to some that makes me Saudi, my parents are Sudanese, according to others that makes me Sudanese, I went back to Sudan at the age of 4 and stayed here until I was 7, then moved to England and stayed there until I was an adult - so many people identify me as British. 
Your nationality is much like your name, it's given to you by the world (other people) but unlike my name, everyone was divided about who and what I was, and as a result, I deeply struggled with displacement.
We live in a highly political world, and the irony is that most people who say ‘I don’t care about/understand politics’ or ‘I don’t see colour’ are actually unaware that they are living a luxury which really means, politics and race are on my side, so I don't need to think about them.
If identity was something people just had, like their eye colour it wouldn't be a problem, but it is not. People often quiz you to find out your 'allegiance' - are you them? or are you us? 
I remember very well sitting with some English friends who were bickering about the Polish coming in ‘to our country’ and taking ‘our jobs’. We grew up together and I guess they saw me as English too, but I felt a strange irony.
For the most part, I felt that I was Sudanese. I looked Sudanese, my parents spoke to me in Arabic I enjoyed thoroughly our annual summer holidays in Sudan. Walking down the street in Sudan no one would ever know that I wasn’t born and raised in Sudan. I loved Sudan, my parents told me amazing stories about how they grew up here and how much they missed it.
When I moved from our small town in South-East England to London to attend university, I realized something different. People here were very different, they were busy all the time, they didn’t really care who you were or what you were doing, they got very angry when someone trying to commit suicide caused their train to be delayed; they didn’t thank bus drivers at the end of their journeys, and bus drivers didn’t stop for them unless they waved… it took me a while to get used to this. I hadn’t realized it at the time, but this was the first time my behaviour branded me British, from the South-East.
After that I moved to Sudan in 2012… and things started to change, I realized that speaking the language was not the same as speaking the culture. I had no clue about the customs and values
, I didn't understand social cues as well as I thought I did and I realized that the idea I had in my head of what Sudan was like was just that – an idea in my head. What was most shocking perhaps was my utter refusal to abandon my British values, values I didn't even know I had.
I began to understand people, what they mean, how they act, but I refused to change – its not that I couldn't, I wouldn't. I refused to adopt any customs bad or good because I felt like a fraud. I knew it wasn’t really me.
As you can imagine, life became very confusing, you look like one thing but feel like another. It’s almost like being adopted – you know they are not your biological parents, but really, they are. I decided to look into my roots and try to understand the concept of countries, races and ethnicities from within – there had to be something that could extinguish this exhausting anguish.
Soon after I began researching African and Islamic history, I came across things that challenged strong concepts we have, and are raised with. Perhaps the most prominent discovery was when I realized no race was a ‘pure race’ as at some point we’ve all mixed, even those claiming to be indigenous. When we look back in history, it is clear that human beings are wonderers, in search of food and shelter. Food and shelter comes in the form of land, whoever finds that land, stays there – until another group militarily superior overthrows and enslaves or massacres them. This basically means that ‘looking a certain way’ doesn't make anyone more or less belonging to a land, it just shows how powerful you are in your ability to stay there.
Take America for example, White Americans are the majority – the land belonged to a complete civilization before them, but due to being militarily superior, they massacred them and now the land belongs to them. Take Sudan, in ancient Nubian times, the Assyrians came (they discovered iron) and massacred the Nubians and claimed themselves the kings of Nubia and Egypt. And now, the people who live here no doubt have a mixed heritage of Assyrian, Nubian, Egyptian and later on Arab blood. Just as civilizations wondered, nowadays, immigration means that my parents were able to move to a new land, as the land they grew up in could no longer serve them.
And so, in the same way that an adopted child has roots that connect them to their biological parents (particularly if the parent wished, but couldn't take care of them) I have roots here in Sudan. But the fact still remains, it was Britain that took care of me, it was Britain that watched me grow.
As a person of mixed cultural origin, I will tell you this – our understanding of others is profoundly deeper than those who are not mixed. I know Sudan very well, because looking Sudanese, allows me to see other sides of this place. I know Britain even better, not because I’m British, but because I grew up there. Britain is the country with the values I believe in, but that doesn't mean I don't understand well and respect Sudanese values.

In the same way, President Obama is an American and understands American values and believes in them. However he understands many other values too - This is why he is loved by many, because he knows how to speak to all of us.

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